We are Farmers

After nearly five years of searching, we found our home in our dream neighborhood! So, we packed up (again), and made the move, up the road and up the mountain. In this beautiful new spot, we have a great view of the sunset, a pool (a dream of mine), and a small farm!

There is so much more to be said about this space, but I’ll spare you as that’s not the point. The point of this little blog is one of wonder, gratitude, and acknowledgment of those other feelings too. You see, even when good things happen in our life, e.g. new home, relationship, job, etc. all the positive feelings come with some negative ones too. It’s often hard to acknowledge those hard feelings, at least it has been hard for me because you are “supposed to” be happy.

I get it, from the outside looking in, I’ve got it all, or at least mostly all the things that should make me happy and feel positive, and yet... This move, from leaving my job and Tahoe, to unpacking and settling into a home, just to find another and move again, has been challenging. Over the last six months, I’ve been trying to force myself into relaxing. Trying to do something, while simultaneously doing nothing. Doing my best to keep active while also getting extremely bored and fighting the urge to “just do something”. I’ve told people that ask what I do, that I’m a “kept woman”. I mostly say it to get a laugh, but I don’t even know what it means to be a “kept” woman. Maybe I should check out some of those “kept girlfriend” Tiktoks, but I don’t have Tiktok, and I am not lamenting that fact – at 45 I don't think you are allowed on the platform - I think there is an age limit - Ha!

Anyway, my rambling is all about this: understand that your feelings are true, and though they may be incongruous with what they are “supposed” to be, it’s ok. And I say this to you, as a way of maybe cutting myself some slack. I too need to learn to navigate my own opposing emotions, during a time I should be grateful and at peace!

Let me know if any of this resonated! Hit me up with a comment or share with others!

As always, Be Well, Be Safe, Be Free!